saying good-bye for now

Well, I have not posted in a long time. I actually forgot that I had started a blog for Max. That is the name of our baby - Max Joseph. We said good-bye to our little darling on Tuesday, February 23, 2010. He was 9 inches long and weighed 8 ounces. I was 21 weeks when I delivered him and was blessed to see and hear his heart beating and feel him move. I do miss him. But - we are comforted that we will get to see him again in heaven. I plan on posting his story later.

I told my DH. He is excited and we are keeping our news under-wraps for a few weeks.

News

Yesterday I found out I am pregnant. This will be child number 5 and pregnancy 8. I am not sure how everyone will react, so for now, I am treasuring this secret in my heart. This child is a blessing from the Lord and He has a purpose for this little one's life already. This one, as with all my children, is known by the Lord as he/she is being fashioned by God Himself in my inward parts. I have always liked Psalm 139.
In the past, I have had difficult pregnancies. Well, I declare this one different. It is going to be the best and easiest one! Right now I am encouraged to give my husband and children more of my individual love. I am asking God just how to do that - His wisdom to know how to effectively love them the way He would have. And when this little one arrives, that I would not be stretched thinner, but that more of God's grace will be imparted to me to have more capacity to love so that no one feels slighted.
Also, I am desiring to organize and de-clutter where I can to make room for the things that having a baby brings. We gave everything away but a pack-n-play, so it will be fun to "start over" with excited siblings!