max

This is max. I miss him and look forward to getting to know him in heaven. I was 21 weeks when I delivered him and said good-bye (for now). After weeks of testing we found out that he was normal but that the placenta had clots in it. It appears that he was just not able to get what he needed to keep growing.

There are so many words deep in my heart that I haven't been able to express. I am trusting the Lord to help me get better at putting words on paper. Words to express what I have walked through and words to encourage others. The right words...

saying good-bye for now

Well, I have not posted in a long time. I actually forgot that I had started a blog for Max. That is the name of our baby - Max Joseph. We said good-bye to our little darling on Tuesday, February 23, 2010. He was 9 inches long and weighed 8 ounces. I was 21 weeks when I delivered him and was blessed to see and hear his heart beating and feel him move. I do miss him. But - we are comforted that we will get to see him again in heaven. I plan on posting his story later.

I told my DH. He is excited and we are keeping our news under-wraps for a few weeks.

News

Yesterday I found out I am pregnant. This will be child number 5 and pregnancy 8. I am not sure how everyone will react, so for now, I am treasuring this secret in my heart. This child is a blessing from the Lord and He has a purpose for this little one's life already. This one, as with all my children, is known by the Lord as he/she is being fashioned by God Himself in my inward parts. I have always liked Psalm 139.
In the past, I have had difficult pregnancies. Well, I declare this one different. It is going to be the best and easiest one! Right now I am encouraged to give my husband and children more of my individual love. I am asking God just how to do that - His wisdom to know how to effectively love them the way He would have. And when this little one arrives, that I would not be stretched thinner, but that more of God's grace will be imparted to me to have more capacity to love so that no one feels slighted.
Also, I am desiring to organize and de-clutter where I can to make room for the things that having a baby brings. We gave everything away but a pack-n-play, so it will be fun to "start over" with excited siblings!